another interview with Billie

shg
No more access to the moral high ground, journalistés... We. We are doing some much-needed repair work.
billie
Who's "we?"
shg
The human race.
billie
I am human too.
shg
sorta.
billie
then... take me to your leader!
Shg
we have no leader.
billie
I've always wanted to say that.
SHG
We are all one.
Billie
Then take me to the One.
shg
You sure?
billie
Doesn't have the same ring to it....
SHG
It's not safe, Billie.
billie
nothing around you is safe, happy Girl.
shg
I can't
billie
yes you can. or did you, once again, conveniently forget?
shg
it's not that simple.
billie
You claim to have manifest the Moral High Ground for your own theocracy. sounds pretty real to me, Girl.
shg
I understood some of that.
bilie
let me in.
shg
you don't understand "inside." now I gotta go inside. There? inside? trust me. you don't want to go.
billie
yes, I do.
shg
You want to be happy?
billie
sure. fine, if you let me talk to the One.
shg
i'm telling you there is no one there. It's One big nothing. Hard to explain.....
billie
I don't care if this One is a human or an alien or a giant sea squid from a parallel univrerse, I want... Whaddaya mean? nothing?
shg
Do you feel different now?
billie
no. I'm fine. why should i?
shg
that's weird.
billie
maybe I'm different too!
shg
I asked the question.
bille
You did! Sneaky Girl. You agreed not to ask me the question. And i let down my guard. You know why? If you had any psychic power over me, I would know by now. That's the thought I held onto. Guess I was right. I guess I'm immune to happiness, Super Super Happy Happy Girl.
Shg
...or maybe you are already happy! Could be....
billie
back to you. How did it feel? When you changed? You were given a choice.
shg
I don't know why i chose to be this. I remember how I felt before. I was sad. It was weird. No one did anything to hurt me. i seemed to just be walking thorugh life with a deep hole of emptiness in me. Nothing could cheer me. Couldn't imagine anything could cheer me. i thought about suicide. i did feel worthless but I thought suicide was inconsiderate. Rude. Someone has to clean up your mess. Bury you. I thought selfishness was wrong, i guess. Do no harm. I believed in that. I may not remember my name but remember the feeling, the sadness, the darkness, the emptiness. there was no resentment. There was no anger I don't think anyone harmed me. As to the what happened? I have no idea. I don't remember a specific moment of time, a thought or a choice. The dark feelings blew away and I became the Super Super Happy Happy Girl.
billie
and now it's time to visst the One or the Nothing on the Moral High Ground. Wow. I want to meet this Nothing. Don't you see, Super Super? if everyone becomes so blissfully happy, our sheep nature come sout. You've seen your followers. i've examined them. They have nothing to live for, nothing to strive for. They are on auto-happy control. What apart of the dehumanization art do you fail to understand?
shg
But they are happy. it's natural. Ther consciousness shifts. Their perspective changes.
billie
some have murdered without remorse.
shg
Shows that they are still human. I don't have a murderer detector.
billie
maybe you should.
(pause)
I don't want to blame you, but it's just too weird. Most stop showering because they lourve the smell.
shg
I love the Lourve.
billie
You've been there?
shg
i must have been. I feel such love for it. I remember the Mona Lisa.
billie
Did you look up close?
shg
I want to kiss her.
billie
You've never been there.
shg
I remember the dedication the way Leo would mix colors for hours. The perfect pigment.
How do you know that?
shg
All painters daudle with their pigments, right? Isn't that why Lee invented the palette knife? To speed up the process? then the happy accident of using the knife as a brush and the cool 3D effect.
billie
He used the word 3D?
shg
obviously, no. realizato or something.
billie
how did you meet leonardo?
shg
I didn't.
billie
How did you acquire his thoughts and feelings?
shg
from his art, I guess.
Bille
favorite color?
shg
Leo? burnt umber
billie
Favorite lover?
shg
Roberto
billie
Favorite work of his own?
shg
He worked really hard on the Mona portrait. He hated it.
Billie
You are correct about that.
shg
It's really bad?
billie
yes. it is way overrated. I think the years of struggle make it more fascinating to the art crowd.
shg
That's too bad. He tried. he really tried.
billie
He did.
shg
And he was always in despair about it.
billie
but he kept on trying...
shg
...for years. He suffered....
billie
Oh my god. it's you. You're the reason the Mona Lisa sucks.
shg
i could feel him suffering anymore.
billie
he woud have figured it out had he not given up. now we know why.
shg
He wanted to be happy.
billie
I don't know how you did that, but it's wrong. You meddled. You're a meddler.