1. What was on my mind.... I was "falling in love" with Senor Ego who I knew would break my heart. I knew it. i just did. He had shown all the signs and symptoms. Still, he loved me too. So, I wasn't delusional. I just had no business getting involved with this guy, thinking I could control the situation. I knew the situation. I forsaw "falling in love" as a falling away or an entrapment. That's what my mind set up and that is what happened. I got trapped alright. Literally.
2. I already had an "auto-immunity." I take a little pink pill (and BTW, my parents never received their settlement from Synthroid. Class action, my ass.) [[Pay Pal address here.]] The little little pink 200mcg levothyroxin has been on my tongue since I was twelve. (Hint: Hashimoto's Thyroiditis.) I confess to going "over-board" and not taking my auto-immunity pill, my kill pill. I was on a "fast" six months before the illness began. Long enough for my body to become mal-adjusted.
3. Childhood knock-out blows. Two, serious. One neurological "dissociative" experience. The two grand mal seizures, the "highlights" of the sudden on-set, I interpret as "side-effects" magnetized. My consistent, since the age of about 16, "partial temporal lobes seizures" have "normalized." Almost.
4. Immediately before my body broke down, I was electrocuted (shocked) at a bar/restaurant (It's still there) on St. Mark's Place.
5. I was immunized for Tetanus only weeks before the symptoms began.
Now you guess what the first symptom was? You can cheat and glance at my wiki. Think about it. Pain. What is the first symptom of pain? The geniuses have the answer! Try to think of how to say it.
Extras points for naming the doctor pictured. His name is above!
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